Refusing to flee

9–1-20

Pretty soon I’m going to be dealing with some horribly painful things. Today I had a new appreciation for women who take their kids and flee. But, I refuse to give up, I stayed for my boys ..... to protect them, to show them I will not abandon them, that I will fight for them even when I’m weak.

I trust too easily, I open my heart to quickly, I hope to strongly. Even after everything he did to me and my boys I still believe.

I still believe in love, in good people, in kindness, in a future filled with joy and passion and everything that’s always been missing. But no one can do it for me.

Being alone is hard when I’m surrounded by reminders of my messed up life.