Anxiety Attack

Abba I need you,

I need you. I can’t do this without you. No one can fix what is broken inside me but you. No one can bring peace to my spirit but You.

My chest hurts, I was hyperventilating, I started throwing up, but because I haven’t really eaten nothing came up. You are the only one who knows my heart. You are the only one who knows everything my abuser did to me. Only You know why my body reacts this way at just the thought of being in the same room with him tomorrow.

You are teaching me so much. You’ve made me so strong. You were with me every moment. You felt how shattered I was laying on the floor begging to just die, for the pain to stop. You know what he is, You know what he’s done and continues to do.

Please grant me peace, supernatural, divine, overwhelming peace. Tell me what to do. I’m not prepared. I haven’t done all the laundry. I’m not finished cleaning the house, especially the dining room.

I’m scared. I’m scared of being weak when I want to be strong because YOU’RE spirit is inside me!

I don’t want to be a victim! Please heal me! Set me free! Please set me free in the name of Jesus and by his blood I cry out to you in supplication. Please God, You said no weapon formed against me shall prosper, that no tongue that accuses me will condemn, that You will vindicate because you are my Heavenly Divine God.

I love you, your daughter,

Poiema

1/9/21 6:57pm